Tuesday, December 4, 2007

love them, hate them

Pacifiers that is. They really help sometimes, but then they become a habit. DR has a habit, and DM doesn't and both are a problem. I wish that when we gave DM his pacifier it would help him go to sleep, especially at 12, 1:30, 3, 4-5, and 7 in the morning... Why is he awake at these hours? this I know is the wrong question and there is no good answer, but I really can't help myself.

There is nothing I resent more than being awakened in the dead of the night. This may make me a bad mother in your eyes, but I can't help it. I bet even if I went to therapy I would still not really like my children when they wake up yelling their heads off at three in the blessed morning. It's a terrible chain reaction too, because I don't like them and G doesn't like me for not liking them. Even in that Once upon a time before I had a life filled with boys who sleep intermittently I resented being awoken, and that was before I was totally wiped from being with them all day long too!

There is nothing to say except that I'm complaining. I know, and I shouldn't. But you did come here of your own free will. I didn't make you come and read my lame-o complaining about the capacity of a two year old to repeat a single phrase more times than you are even capable of counting. "I want my paci" five hundred (or more) times is the other problem with pacifiers. It's all about sleep really, how can we get the most, and for DR that's with a Paci. Too bad he also wants it when he's awake. blech. The Paci Fairy is coming soon, and that will mean less sleep in addition to the minimal amount that we are already barely getting.

Crappy post I know, but I warned you. Maybe I should get outside, oh wait, they both have runny noses and I can't use my fabulous double stroller with the wind whipping around. Must be winter, since I have cabin fever.

Well, at least our furnace isn't under water like B&C in Seattle. I told you I was lame for complaining. Ugh.

On another cheery tangent, we're planning for untimely deaths right now. Hopefully you have already done this. Nothing like estate planning to make you think about the uncertainty of life.
I think that's enough gloom for today, and best if I stop before it gets any darker.

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